Feb 13, 2012

Inside Out Love

Tomorrow is the big day!  Love will flourish, die or be longed for.  Valentine's Day used to get me down; especially when I was in my 20's and 30's.  I was anxious to fulfill the expectations of a woman--get married and start a family.  If this wasn't accomplished by 30, I would be in the danger zone!  All of the good men would be taken and my chances of a fairy tale ending would quickly vanish. 

I'm in my 40's now and although I still haven't seen my fairy tale ending, I'm living.  I've learned it's not good to be anxious for love.  Love is a process which develops over time and should never be rushed.  Do I believe in love at first sight?  Of course, but even in those situations, trust, honesty and loyalty still have to be addressed.  I am satisfied with the life I have.  At this stage in the game, I wouldn't want to be a woman who rushed love in the 20's  and 30's and now in the 40's have to deal with divorce court, custody issues and legal bills or not have enough courage to do so.  

We have to truly love ourselves before we can provide the love that is required for a lifelong commitment and it has to be a conscience process.  I'm more excited than ever about falling in love now because I've had the time I need to deal with me and I know my love reward will be better than I ever imagined.  Although I won't be treated to a candlelight dinner and I love yous tomorrow, I will be anxiously awaiting the delivery of a new pair of shoes and business cards because I'm in the midst of loving myself.  I'm loving it!
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